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Name: Sarah Ellen
Country: United States
State: Colorado
Gender: Female
Interests: i love reading and writing... some of my favorite authors are henri nouwen, jane austen, mother teresa, anne lamott, frederick buechner, chaim potok (he's my fave!). some of the best books i have read lately are: the secret life of bees, life of pi, great expectations, mudhouse sabbath. cookbooks are always good, too. i love cooking and baking. i enjoy listening to music like the innocence mission, u2, over the rhine.
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Member Since:
8/10/2004
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| Tammy, I'm enjoying this book that you recommended... it's very mysterious. | | |
| Midnight hours we have held you.
Morning sun, cool breeze,
we with you rose.
With our hands, our hearts,
we fed you, bathed you, changed you.
Still in awe,
miracle of knowing you,
you are the
bone of our bones,
flesh of our flesh.
How do we continue with our days?
How do we continue with our days?
Our sunlight, our son.
Hold you we will still,
Ever-filled our hearts will be,
Joy of knowing you.
And we are
held by hands that hold you now,
spirits lifted up with yours,
One day
Everyday
All our days
You our hearts will hold.
Someday
One day
We with you rise.
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| A week ago today our good friends started living in the hospital. Their six week old baby boy's heart stopped beating and breathing stopped suddenly. Out of the blue. He hadn't seemed sick. Just happy and healthy. We have been to visit a few times, and it looks like he will go to be with Jesus very soon. I don't know what else to say right now. This has felt like a major crisis for us, even though our boy is healthy, laughing, and learning to walk; and because of that. I feel like I have been living and breathing prayer, and struggling some with God - of course. That is what I do when these things happen. Last night standing outside in the cool, hushed night air looking up at the hazy orange sky and thinking about heaven and life and death and hope. Turning on the sprinkler to water the grass. | | |
| "We all have wounds. We all live in pain and disappointment. We all have feelings of loneliness that lurk beneath all our successes, feelings of uselessness that hide under all the praise, feelings of meaninglessness even when people say we are fantastic - and that is what makes us sometimes grab onto people and expect from them affection, affirmation, and love that they cannot give. If we want other people to give us something that only God can give, we are guilty of idolatry. We say, 'Love me!' and before long we become demanding and manipulative. It's so important that we keep forgiving one another - not once in a while but every moment of life. This is what makes community possible, when we can come together in a forgiving and undemanding way.
Our heart longs for satisfaction, for total communion. But human beings, whether it's your husband, your wife, your father, mother, brother, sister, or child, are all limited in giving the level of love and acceptance we all crave. But since we want so much and we get only part of what we want, we have to keep forgiving people for not giving us all we want. So, I forgive you since you can only love me in a limited way. I forgive my mother that she is not everything I would like her to be. I forgive my father because he did the best he could. This is of enormous importance right now because people look to blame their parents, their friends, and the church for not giving them what they need. Many people are so angry. They cannot forgive people for offering only limited expressions of an unlimited love. God's love is unlimited; our love is not. Any relationship you enter into - in communion, friendship, marriage, community, or church - will always be riddled with frustration and disappointment. So forgiveness becomes the word for divine love in the human context....
As people who have hearts that long for perfect love, we have to forgive one another for not being able to give or receive that perfect love in our everyday lives. Our many needs constantly interfere with our desire to be there for the other unconditionally. Our love is always limited by spoken or unspoken conditions. What needs to be forgiven? We need to forgive one another for not being God!"
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| I just finished North of Hope (thanks, Tammy!! It's good...) and now I'm starting this one. | | |
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